Fallen

So I've always had this obsession with angels, and i wrote some poems about them. This one is about a specific angel. I hope you can figure out who he is.

Once called "Pure of Heart"

The Leader of God's Army,

Such a great creature I was said to be,

But now I have been reduced,

Reduced to walk among the fallen;

Forgive me Father for I have sinned,

Forgive my brothers for they know not what they do;

Do not forsake me my Father,

For I will never forsake you.

But I cannot return;

Never for now, by you side.

I am a Fallen, 

And forever shall be,

Until the day I hath helped,

My brothers to find your grace again.

I choose to be a Fallen, 

And Forever more shall I be,

Forgive me my Father...

So this is my interpretation of a certain angel, I hope you've figured out who he is. This is how  think he must feel. I've read about angels a lot, but never something from their view, from his view. He's always portrayed as this knight in shining armor, but what happened before that? What happened during his darkest moments, why'd he fall, why'd he become so valliant? Well this is sorta my insight, it's not that good but yeaaa....

BTW Happy New Year my Crazies :D

 Crazy and Insanely Fun, Totally Random,

Iris.

xoxoxo

Embrace Yourself

"I'm beautifully broken, perfectly imperfect, beautiful in my flaws. All together I am a beautiful disaster."

“Stop trying to 'fix' yourself; you're NOT broken! You are perfectly imperfect and powerful beyond measure.” ― Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience 

Don't try to change for others, change to please yourself. You are unique, one of a kind, and just like the quote says, you're perfectly imperfect. Embrace it. :D

Crazy and Insanely Fun, Totally Random,

Iris.

xoxoxo

Confessions of A Broken Heart

So this is something I wrote for all the girls who can't express what they want to say to that guy who broke your heart.

Dear XOXO,

Heh, you must want to know why you're reading this.Well this letter is my cowardly way of expressing everything I wanted to say,all the feelings that I kept hidden, and all the pain you've caused me.

I loved you. I fell so hard for you, your kindness,your gentle touches, your sweet words, but all I was to you was mild entertainment. Every second, minute, every hour I thought of you, and I wondered were you thinking of me? I guess not. I asked you if you feel the same about me, and in your hesitation I found my answer. My heart bled for that realization, my soul was crushed, my mind in chaos.

Was I wrong to want what normal girls wanted? A cute cheesy love, where you'd be my prince charming, let me steal your hoodies,where you'd hug me from behind, kiss my forehead. A pure innocent love. But what I got was the opposite, not love, but heart wrenching pain. Would you still be smiling if you were in my situation, if you knew my agony? That’s what I get for dreaming the impossible, because I'm not a princess and you're not my prince, this isn't a fairytale, this is reality. I was a dreamer before you came and dropped me into reality.

I wonder if you find this humorous, a girl pining for a love she can't have. But then again what would you know, you're a boy and you don't know what girls go through when she’s in love with you. You can have a grand old time with anyone else, there are plenty of girls you can date. But to us girls you're the only one beneath the moon above who we've taken the risk to love.

So I must ask why? Was it fun to toy with my heart? Was I not good enough? Was I just I notch I your belt? But heh, I’ll never know will I?

But I’ll smile, and laugh. I stand on my own two feet, ill push on and be the best I can, for myself. Why? Because if I’m not worth your time, then you never deserved my affection. And one day I'll find my prince, and I'll look back and truly say you didn't deserve my love, and you lost a gem while playing with stones.

Crazy and Insanely Fun, Totally Random,

Iris.

xoxoxo

What is Love?

I was bored, and somebody asked me this question, so i got to thinking, and thinking turned into writing and writing turned into some sketches as well lolmao

What is love?

Love is like a rose, beautiful yet dangerous. We love lilies but we prefer roses because of their beauty, but yet if we grasp a rose we are hurt by its thorn. So why do we crave something so cruel? Love is sadistic yet sweet, harsh yet kind, crushing yet uplifting. In a nut shell, love is perfectly imperfect, a beautiful disaster. So why do we search for this paradox? It may not even exist, but then again, it may. It can hurt you on your quest to find it, it can cripple you, drive you insane; but it frees you as well, teaches you, lets you experience eutopia. So love is neither good nor evil, it is not material, it can not be held, it can neither be happy or sad. Love is simply an emotion. What you do with it can create a monster or a rainbow. Love depends on you, your perception. Love is what you want it to be.

Crazy and Insanely Fun, Totally Random,
Iris.
XOXOXO

Just Have Fun

So a few days ago my cousin and I were at University, and we were so bored that we started this game. He believes his hair is his major charm, I oppose that, so I asked random persons "do you like his hair?" and the majority answered in the affirmative. But I refuse to accept defeat, it isn't over yet :v. Well until a really hot guy I like turns out to be gay and tells my cousin he likes him. Kind of like the song "Call Me Maybe". hehehe :D

And after that episode, it had me thinking about a new topic. "Just Have Fun". Not everyone thing is meant to be serious, some people live while some just exist. Don't you want to live your life without regrets. Live your life to the max, and have fun. But be careful there is a thin line between fun and stupidity; so when having fun, be safe lol. 

I'm not saying to be extravagant in all you do but live a little. Don't live to please others all the time, do something for yourself. If you're in college, do something that will make you happy in the long run; not a career your parents want you to do. Because, as harsh as this may sound, when they're dead and gone, you'll be left doing something that makes you miserable. And you'll then realize you wasted most of your younger days. Live to fulfill your dreams, and if by chance you loose your dream, create another. That's the funny thing with dreams, you can always create new ones, aim for new destinations. The only one who can make you truly happy is yourself. So get out there, make wise decisions and be happy. Have no regrets.

Crazy and Insanely Fun, Totally Random,

Iris.

xoxoxo

Be Yourself :)

The persons who are different usually end up making a difference in the world. That's what I think, so why do you want to conform to the fads of society, be unique, be crazy, be YOU. "Perfect" doesn't exist. We are flawed, that's what people should love us for. Not some superficial concept of godliness that doesn't exist.
Being different isn't a crime, if we were all alike the world would be boring. Stand up for what you believe in, stand up for who you are. Don't mimic others, you are who you are, so why are you trying to be someone else? The greatest thing you can be is yourself, there is only one you.



Crazy and Insanely Fun, Totally Random,
Iris.
XOXOXO

 
 

Cherish every moment :)

So I've been obsessed with "Let Her Go" by The Passengers, lately and I've realized how many things people take for granted, and this is going to be a short post but it's just a little advice.
Take risks, be yourself, live life to the fullest, be happy, fulfill your dreams, be what and who you want, stop trying to please others. And the best thing I learned form this song is always say how you feel, because you never know if you'll get back the lost time, and the wasted chance.
You may be scared to take risks, be it in relationships, work, and life overall, but let me tell you, sometimes you'll rise and sometimes you'll fall. But to be truly strong is to never give up, and try again, because you never truly fail, you just learn what not to do, and grow. Be better than you were yesterday, and be the best you can be tomorrow.
Smile while you can, Laugh your butt off, Cry when you feel like, you are free to be you, so don't imitate anyone else. And one day you'll find someone who likes you with all your perfections and faults, someone who accepts those flaws as the reason why you're you. Persevere when it seems hopeless and everyday will feel amazing. It may not always be sunshine and rainbows, but without the rain and storm you'll never be able to appreciate the blue sky's beauty and the rainbows elegance.
Never let anyone bring you down, only you can control that. Never depend on solely on others to raise you up, because you give them permission to plummet you. 
And if you feel you can't go on, You just do it. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and bloody hell, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You Cry. You Curse. You let it all out! Then you begin again; better, stronger, wiser.
And remember never let your heart falter, for that's where your path to happiness lies. So just smile. :)



Let her go
Crazy and Insanely Fun, Totally Random,
Iris.
XOXOXO