Saturday, 27 December 2014

Embrace Yourself

"I'm beautifully broken, perfectly imperfect, beautiful in my flaws. All together I am a beautiful disaster."

“Stop trying to 'fix' yourself; you're NOT broken! You are perfectly imperfect and powerful beyond measure.” ― Steve MaraboliUnapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience 

Don't try to change for others, change to please yourself. You are unique, one of a kind, and just like the quote says, you're perfectly imperfect. Embrace it. :D

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Confessions of A Broken Heart

So this is something I wrote for all the girls who can't express what they want to say to that guy who broke your heart.

Dear XOXO,
Heh, you must want to know why you're reading this.Well this letter is my cowardly way of expressing everything I wanted to say,all the feelings that I kept hidden, and all the pain you've caused me.
I loved you. I fell so hard for you, your kindness,your gentle touches, your sweet words, but all I was to you was mild entertainment. Every second, minute, every hour I thought of you, and I wondered were you thinking of me? I guess not. I asked you if you feel the same about me, and in your hesitation I found my answer. My heart bled for that realization, my soul was crushed, my mind in chaos.
Was I wrong to want what normal girls wanted? A cute cheesy love, where you'd be my prince charming, let me steal your hoodies,where you'd hug me from behind, kiss my forehead. A pure innocent love. But what I got was the opposite, not love, but heart wrenching pain. Would you still be smiling if you were in my situation, if you knew my agony? That’s what I get for dreaming the impossible, because I'm not a princess and you're not my prince, this isn't a fairytale, this is reality. I was a dreamer before you came and dropped me into reality.
I wonder if you find this humorous, a girl pining for a love she can't have. But then again what would you know, you're a boy and you don't know what girls go through when she’s in love with you. You can have a grand old time with anyone else, there are plenty of girls you can date. But to us girls you're the only one beneath the moon above who we've taken the risk to love.
So I must ask why? Was it fun to toy with my heart? Was I not good enough? Was I just I notch I your belt? But heh, I’ll never know will I?
But I’ll smile, and laugh. I stand on my own two feet, ill push on and be the best I can, for myself. Why? Because if I’m not worth your time, then you never deserved my affection. And one day I'll find my prince, and I'll look back and truly say you didn't deserve my love, and you lost a gem while playing with stones.

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Thursday, 11 December 2014

What is Love?

I was bored, and somebody asked me this question, so i got to thinking, and thinking turned into writing and writing turned into some sketches as well lolmao
What is love?
Love is like a rose, beautiful yet dangerous. We love lilies but we prefer roses because of their beauty, but yet if we grasp a rose we are hurt by its thorn. So why do we crave something so cruel? Love is sadistic yet sweet, harsh yet kind, crushing yet uplifting. In a nut shell, love is perfectly imperfect, a beautiful disaster. So why do we search for this paradox? It may not even exist, but then again, it may. It can hurt you on your quest to find it, it can cripple you, drive you insane; but it frees you as well, teaches you, lets you experience eutopia. So love is neither good nor evil, it is not material, it can not be held, it can neither be happy or sad. Love is simply an emotion. What you do with it can create a monster or a rainbow. Love depends on you, your perception. Love is what you want it to be.

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Thursday, 4 September 2014

Just Have Fun

So a few days ago my cousin and I were at University, and we were so bored that we started this game. He believes his hair is his major charm, I oppose that, so I asked random persons "do you like his hair?" and the majority answered in the affirmative. But I refuse to accept defeat, it isn't over yet :v. Well until a really hot guy I like turns out to be gay and tells my cousin he likes him. Kind of like the song "Call Me Maybe". hehehe :D
And after that episode, it had me thinking about a new topic. "Just Have Fun". Not everyone thing is meant to be serious, some people live while some just exist. Don't you want to live your life without regrets. Live your life to the max, and have fun. But be careful there is a thin line between fun and stupidity; so when having fun, be safe lol. 
I'm not saying to be extravagant in all you do but live a little. Don't live to please others all the time, do something for yourself. If you're in college, do something that will make you happy in the long run; not a career your parents want you to do. Because, as harsh as this may sound, when they're dead and gone, you'll be left doing something that makes you miserable. And you'll then realize you wasted most of your younger days. Live to fulfill your dreams, and if by chance you loose your dream, create another. That's the funny thing with dreams, you can always create new ones, aim for new destinations. The only one who can make you truly happy is yourself. So get out there, make wise decisions and be happy. Have no regrets.

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Friday, 25 April 2014

Be Yourself :)

The persons who are different usually end up making a difference in the world. That's what I think, so why do you want to conform to the fads of society, be unique, be crazy, be YOU. "Perfect" doesn't exist. We are flawed, that's what people should love us for. Not some superficial concept of godliness that doesn't exist.
Being different isn't a crime, if we were all alike the world would be boring. Stand up for what you believe in, stand up for who you are. Don't mimic others, you are who you are, so why are you trying to be someone else? The greatest thing you can be is yourself, there is only one you.

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Wednesday, 23 April 2014

Cherish every moment :)

So I've been obsessed with "Let Her Go" by The Passengers, lately and I've realized how many things people take for granted, and this is going to be a short post but it's just a little advice.
Take risks, be yourself, live life to the fullest, be happy, fulfill your dreams, be what and who you want, stop trying to please others. And the best thing I learned form this song is always say how you feel, because you never know if you'll get back the lost time, and the wasted chance.
You may be scared to take risks, be it in relationships, work, and life overall, but let me tell you, sometimes you'll rise and sometimes you'll fall. But to be truly strong is to never give up, and try again, because you never truly fail, you just learn what not to do, and grow. Be better than you were yesterday, and be the best you can be tomorrow.
Smile while you can, Laugh your butt off, Cry when you feel like, you are free to be you, so don't imitate anyone else. And one day you'll find someone who likes you with all your perfections and faults, someone who accepts those flaws as the reason why you're you. Persevere when it seems hopeless and everyday will feel amazing. It may not always be sunshine and rainbows, but without the rain and storm you'll never be able to appreciate the blue sky's beauty and the rainbows elegance.
Never let anyone bring you down, only you can control that. Never depend on solely on others to raise you up, because you give them permission to plummet you. 
And if you feel you can't go on, You just do it. You force yourself to put one foot before the other, and bloody hell, you refuse to let it get to you. You fight. You Cry. You Curse. You let it all out! Then you begin again; better, stronger, wiser.
And remember never let your heart falter, for that's where your path to happiness lies. So just smile. :)

Let her go
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Tuesday, 22 April 2014

What If?- Original Poem

So my friend recently came out of a relationship, and she was heart broken. I couldn't understand how someone could hurt another, and this poem reflects my thoughts, an original piece by yours truly.

What if?
What if you were in her space?
What if she hurt you?
What if you were the one waiting?
Waiting for a love that was never was yours.
‘What if?’ ‘What if?’ ‘What if?’
That’s all she can ask, ‘what if?’

Would you fight the way she did?
Or would you just give up?
Would you walk through fire?
Would you fight the rain?
But again we wouldn’t know,
We can only ask, ‘what if?’

Would you feel her pain?
Would you cry again and again?
Would you accept her ridiculous excuse?
Or would you snap?
Yeah but we wouldn’t know,
Only, ‘what if?’

So before you hurt someone,
Think about what I’ve said,
Think about how you’d react,
Think, ‘what if?”

Hope you guys like it :) 


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Songs That Make Me Have the 'Feels' lol

 If you're in this 'sad, feeling like watching a Nicholas Sparks movie' Mood, then these songs are perfect for you. This is for a friend of mine, she asked me to recommend a few songs that would go with such a mood, and these are some I listen to when I read such books as Nicholas Sparks and other books in this Genre. If you want me to recommend a playlist for you, just leave a comment, and likewise for book recommendations :)
What Hurts the Most- Rascal Flatts
We Both Know- Tim McGraw and Colbie Calliat
When You Were Mine- Taylor HEnderson
I Never Told You- Colbie Calliat
It Will Rain- Bruno Mars
When You're Gone- Avril Lavigne
The One That Got Away- Katy Perry
Big Girls Don't Cry- Fergie
Because of You- Kelly Clarkson
A Thousand Years-Christina Perry
Breathe Again- Sara Bareilles
Thinking Of You- Katy Perry
My Immortal- Evanescence
Hurt- Christina Aguilera
How to Save A Life- The Fray
Breathe No More- Evanescence
Say Something- A Great Big World feat Christina Aguilera
Someone Like You- Adele
Jar Of Hearts-Christina Perry
Mirrors- Justin Timberlake
Not Over You- Tim McGraw
I Can't Make You Love Me(Original)- Bonnie Raitt
 I Can't Make You Love Me(Adele Cover)
No Name- Ryan O'shaughnessy
First Kiss-Ryan O'Shaughnessy
Bless This Broken Road- Rascal Flatts
Not Like The Movies-Katy Perry
Make You Feel My Love- Adele
Let Her Go- The Passengers
I'd Rather Go Blind- Beyonce(Cadillac Records)

Ok so this is a playlist of song to help you catch the 'Feels' check them out, they're all really beautiful, and tell me what you think. :D

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Sunday, 20 April 2014

Impossible expectations

 Hey My Cutie Crazies,
This is for all those who girls who agree with this:"Why is it so hard for women to find men that are sensitive, caring, and good-looking? Because those men already have boyfriends."--this is crap! You people have to see whats right in front of you cause you'll loose him.when you have a great guy you drive him mad by complaining and always criticizing! Then when he speaks his mind you say he's inconsiderate,insensitive and a lot of bad things. Girls who agree with that should grow up. Everyone's not perfect and guys do have their flaws and may be inconsiderate at times but girls you're no different! And stop trying to change the guys, they have as much right to be themselves as any girl i know! So please stop with that crap and stop being sexist, what goes for guys goes for girls too! And I know girls that can see things for what it is, not what they want it to look like and I think you girls should at least try to see it this way, not only from your perspective but from the perspective of the guys... But don't think you're off the hook Guys, some of you are guilty for the same thinking. You want a girl who has a rocking Body, who complies to whatever you want, she's supposed to automatically know what you want.... it doesn't work like that. Love her for who she is, respect her for being unique, compliment her, don't ignore her. If you argue, don't leave her, because she's going to feel really horrible if you give up. If she's worth fighting for, hold onto her, don't make her feel inferior, make her feel like the most beautiful person in the world. Show her how much you appreciate her, and never her hurt her.
So what I'm trying to say Guys and Gals, is don't place impossible expectations on others, accept them for who they are, and happiness is only a smile away. :)
Ed Sheeran- Lego House ;-)

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You Don't need to see it, to believe it, so stop being a partypooper :p

Hey my Cutie Crazies, it's been so long, I'm sorry about the wait. University has me really busy, but I've finally got some free time :)
So i think you're wondering about my choice of title, and the reason i chose that title is because I'm sick of people squashing others' fantasies and dreams. Seriously chill out and quit doing that, so what if someone wants to believe in fairies, vampires, werewolves and other supernatural creatures, just let them be. It isn't your duty to tell them "Hey, you're so weird, those things don't exist". Well by doing that you're just a douchey partypooper. Who are you supposed to be? The bleeding Realist Enforcer? No you're not, so chill out. Just because you don't see it, doesn't mean it isn't real. Take for instance Dinosaurs, have you seen one personally? No. But you believe, because you see remnants of them, so in my theory why can't Dragons be real? Why can't these mythical creatures be cousins of the dinosaurs? But no, people just have to tell others it's just not possible... Why can't it be possible? Because it wasn't scientifically proved? Well if NASA says that dragons existed, would you magically believe because its scientifically proven? I'm not trying to say you SHOULD believe in them, but all I'm trying to get across is, don't squash someone's fantasy to prove your own point, it's pathetic.
Another thing don't force your ideals on someone, it's not right. If I don't like something, it's my opinion, you've expressed yours, so why should you try to force your opinion on me. Everyone's entitled to their own wrong opinion( lol im joking).... As i was saying, everyone's entitled to their own opinion, and just because you don't agree with it doesn't mean you should completely disregard it and try to undermine the other person, it's so not cool; well unless the stuff the other person says is truly utter crap, then go ahead, but do it a nice way, try not to hurt their feelings.
 :D :D XD XD
And if you're a little crazy, weird and coocoo, then it's alright.... All the best ones are bonkers :D

Crazy and Insanely Fun, Totally Random,
Avril Lavigne- Here's To Never Growing Up